[better late than...]

I don't know why I hadn't spotted these beauties last spring,
but can I just point out that I adore the Spijkers & Spijkers
SS 2011 collection: Dutch Nautical. These dresses speak to
my soul! "Come away with me, let's sail away from the safe waters..."
(though they would be super impractical onboard,...)

[Film]

If I'd be writing our script
which scenes would I play again
which scenes would I erase
which scenes would I keep
who would play me
who would play you
How long would it take me to answer
would I hesitate again,
Would I write you to ask again
in a way that I wouldn't run away
but look into you
and see you, for the first time
like a man
who you are becoming
who have you been
and dare to let you in
behind these gates.
Come soon.

[Post Title]

Again came across one of the most famous quotes that is by Mark Twain: "Dance like nobody's watching; love like you've never been hurt. Sing like nobody's listening; live like it's heaven on earth." 


It sort of struct me - I do want to dance in a way I am seen, seen and known and 
wild and real and alive. No hiding, because when I dance, I only dance for the One who created dance.
No agenda, no games, but a gentle, unstoppable force. Dance like you are loved. You are.
Love... I do want to love in a way that I fully recognize that I have been hurt, I want
to love in a way that I know it, I remember it, learn, but I choose to forgive, I choose to give my all,
I choose to turn as many cheeks as it takes, I want to love fearlessly, but not to be naïve,
I want to find peace on my boundaries and love with hurts and no hurts, as to truly love
means that you are willing for it to be costly. Unconditional.
Sing - whether it's screaming or whisper, I know that I am heard. I should be heard.
And I am singing along and for the One who cares of my songs. One who sang us into being.
Live like it's heaven on earth. And it is. Now, and not yet. Kingdom come!







"We all want to grow with the seeds we will sow
We all want to go with the breeze we will blow
We all want to know when we're all meant to go
To a place you and I - will call home"

[I can't outguess God]

"Dixie Chicks: Wide Open Spaces"

Who doesn't know what I'm talking about
Who's never left home, who's never struck out
To find a dream and a life of their own
A place in the clouds, a foundation of stone

Many precede and many will follow
A young girl's dream no longer hollow
It takes the shape of a place out west
But what it holds for her, she hasn't yet guessed

[Chorus:]
She needs wide open spaces
Room to make her big mistakes
She needs new faces
She knows the high stakes

She traveled this road as a child
Wide eyed and grinning, she never tired
But now she won't be coming back with the rest
If these are life's lessons, she'll take this test

[Repeat Chorus]
She knows the high stakes

As her folks drive away, her dad yells, "Check the oil!"
Mom stares out the window and says, "I'm leaving my girl"
She said, "It didn't seem like that long ago"
When she stood there and let her own folks know

[Repeat Chorus]
She knows the highest stakes
She knows the highest stakes
She knows the highest stakes
She knows the highest stakes

[night watch]

See my motivation isn't loneliness.
My motivation is not fear.
My motivation is not needing something.
My motivation isn't even that I couldn't do
this, lack of capacity or capability.
So I am thankful,
that I actually get to choose.
I ain't a sun of your universe,
I am a shooting star.

I will follow something ancient,
something that was written before
I knew how to read,
A sound that was sang,
before I had ears,
A calling,
spoken to the depths of the sea,
and where I swam ashore,
I shall belong.

"And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference."

[prospect]

i wish i could share with you
my desire to invest in this
when i try to figure things out
and live in a way i know is right,
really don't want to mess up this - (what ever it will become)
(even though it's actually alright,
i don't think even my mistakes could stop this)
"There are no rules of architecture for a castle in the clouds."
but there are some structures
that healthy organic things need,

so I want to see a solid foundation,
the most beautiful house with many rooms
ready to be decorated, ready to be lived in,
and yeah may we be crowned
with a trim that comes
like a halo, bright eaves,
a shining edge,
from the above
that takes it all
and knows,
it is good,
come what may.

[no]

If you have heard it right,
why weren't you told details?
Why weren't you told that the door
you are knocking on is closed?
If you heard it right,
why weren't you told that the path
you are trying to tread on,
has been closed from the public?
If you heard it right,
why weren't you told,
that this one is not to be conquered
but little by little to earn it's trust?
If you heard it right,
why didn't you know?
Or if you had heard, did you not
trust, did you not believe,
did you not obey?
And why hadn't I heard anything?
Sorry, but the door will remain closed until I hear,
the path kept only for those who know
where it begins,
and the fox,
the warrior, the princess,
she will stay in the wilderness.
See, my wilderness grows roses.

|medicine|

...has to taste bad
in order to be effective.
air is fresher when it's raining.
milk is more expensive every time
I buy a new carton.
buses never seem to slow down
in that junction.
in moments slowly dragging by
when i'm trying to find my feet
so strongly rooted on this rock
i'm looking around
wondering why aren't you
still standing next to me
why don't i speak your language
why can't i just stay where you were
or are you ahead
i wish i could tell you all these
tales, mundane
make them technicolor
and get to know how you feel.
And yet I know, I know, I know.
You were an image in my Creator's mind
before I knew who you are,
and while we run to the horizon
the careless feeling,
there is nothing that can stop it.

[with you is my home/holiday]

Psalm 122

A Song of Ascents. Of David.

 ¹I WAS glad when they said to me, 
Let us go to the house of the Lord!

²Our feet are standing within 

your gates, O Jerusalem!--

³Jerusalem, which is built as a city 

that is compacted together--

⁴To which the tribes go up, even the 

tribes of the Lord, as was decreed 

and as a testimony for Israel, 

to give thanks to the name of the Lord.

⁵For there the thrones of judgment were set, 

the thrones of the house of David.

⁶Pray for the peace of Jerusalem! 

May they prosper who love you [the Holy City]!

⁷May peace be within your walls 

and prosperity within your palaces!

⁸For my brethren and companions' sake, 

I will now say, Peace be within you!

⁹For the sake of the house of the Lord our God, 

I will seek, inquire for, and require your good.