Sights and visions...

I can't remember exactly when it started,
it certainly know that it hasn't been here for long.
But it keeps coming back more often.
That deep, profound feeling of happiness.
Overflowing but inside.
I wonder if it could have something to do with these...

John 15:11 "...so that my joy may be in you
and that your joy may be complete."
2. Cor. 7:4 "...in all our troubles my joy knows no bounds."
Gal 5:22 "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy,..."

The vision. We had 4 hr long training
session yesterday. It sounds crazy, but
i got this strong feeling that it already is
something More. More than just us.
More than just our capability, creativity
and coreography. It's like a breathing,
living prayer. I hope the audience will
feel and see it too.
And more.

Have a nice, blessed weekend!

yorkshire angels and what a glorious morning

"Beautiful one I love
Beautiful one I adore
Beautiful one my soul must sing

Powerful so powerful your glory fills the skies
Your mighty works displayed for all to see
The beauty of your majesty awakes my heart to sing
How marvelous, how wonderful you are"

- Chris Tomlin: Beautiful one

Just so happy this morning with and without many
apparent reasons. Even thought i broke my
favorite mug last nite.. (Which i nearly cried over
for, i really was nice and big and
a gift from a friend from london)
And even thought it's beautiful sunshiny day
and i plan to work inside on computer for
next 7 hrs. Just insides of me bubble with happiness.

Yesterday night i read a lovely book,
classic story, "the Secret Garden". Loved the
way how they described change happening in
the children. Innocent, sweet lil book.

Have a wee bit of patience, laddie.
* coffee break*

Lately everyone seems to be a bit on edge
in school, in next few weeks
we are going to have to hand in reports of
advanced special studies and bachelor's theses.

Walking back to home after school yesterday
i saw bunch of young men playing football on field
near my house. It looked like great fun
and i realised how much i miss playing team sports.
Or just having group of friends living
in neighbourhood, always up for a game or
play outside. Some of the best memories of
childhood times are memories
of playing outside with friends and kids from
the block. We must have known dozens of
different games and sports.
My brother has often heard the story of first
english word he learned by himself.
We lived in kibbutz and playing football was
favourite childrens favourite pastime. At twilight
one day my brother came home running happily
and asked my mum: "Mum, what's in finnish
flai goukiipr?" Took awhile from mum to figure
out that word this 7-year old was looking
for was flying goalkeeper. :)

:) what makes you happy today?

sunshine. ice cream. swimming. flipflops.
sand. ultimate. mountain bikes. swiss alps. boys.
girls. hugs. chocolate. coffee.
latte. toffee. vanilla. surf. waves.
snow. snow fights. winter clothes. billabong.
animal store. skate boards. camera. jack.
most popular names in uk.
grace. gifts. sparkles. glitter.
movies. kite runner. breeze.
24-7breeze. anni&antti. babies.
fleece. warmness of blanket.
good night sleep.

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For 30 seconds list things that make
you happy today. Smiling brainstorm.

Just a borrowed thought..

...

no no no.

There is not enough in me to be the fulfilment of
anybody's dreams. I am not enough to be centre
of anyone's universe.

But i want to learn to love and be loved.
I want to overcome all fears and be transparent,
unlocked, sincere and open.

I want to learn to express my love by serving,
caring, sharing, feeding, entertaining and helping.
By being vulnerable, attainable and available.
By learning how to protect myself and let others
protect me.

By learning how to respect and cherish those whom i love
and those i don't.

I want to learn to be captivating.

I want to learn to laugh like i have never been hurt,
to sing like nobody is listening, to pray like it
all depends on God and live like it all depends on me.

And i don't mind, if someday my prince will come and
propose a partnership in where all above could be practised.
*blush*

..slivers of light..

What i most love about spring time is mornings.
After long dark winter days it's such a delight
to wake up in the morning with sunshining through
windows and playing with shadows on my wall.
Oh, see the Beauty of the Light.

For late breakfast i had hug cup of good PG's tea, tuna&mayo sandwich,
branflakes and two plums. Oh, Life of Simple delicacies..

Lately i have been so be grateful for small mercies
that have walked in to my life in form of brothers and sisters.
I have been blessed with the most beautiful, gifted and loving
sisters and brothers. Three of them from same mother and brother
and whole bunch of them that have been just Godsend.
Thanks guys, you know who you are, and i feel that i just don't
have words good enough to tell what a difference in the world you are.

I have been also going arounf in circles around few thoughts, which
i'd like to share with you. They are not doctrines set in stone, but
something i have found fascinating and thought provoking.
Yes, most of you are already familiar with these...

Nevertheless,...


Transparency. Holiness must be
transparent. It is, after all, to stand in the light and let the light
go through you, shine and reflect. To stand in love and let love shine
through you. In holiness there's nothing to hide. It is when nothing is
everything. Sin causes hiding. It builds facades.

Unconditional. What is unconditional
love? Can i accept unconditional love? World's love is always conditional.
World's love is selfish. There is no goodness apart from God.
My goodness is nothing apart from God.
There is no love outside of God.
And He paid price of love, in love and for love.
He paid full price to be able to love us unconditionally. Again.

Way. Exploring the way of being.
We are made as image of the great "I am". Capture moment, seize the day.
Carpe diem. Learn to be while you walk.

Truth. How did it get so popular
that we can build our own truths? And how easily we accept our wounds as
truth. Enemy is nothing but impostor and liar, twisting and altering truth.

Life. Is a gift. How does it change
my living and thinking if i would realise that i have eternal life.
God's love is shown best when shared as life.

h like...

hilla.

huskies.

horsemanship.

high heels.

hobbits.

hummus.

hospitality.

heavenly host.

hypothalamus.

homme bien élevé.

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24/7breeze..

..coming up this summer. stay tuned.

musteläikkätesti.

studying possibilities of illustrator. loving it.

more random self portrait art.

in my illustrator class first task was to create self portrait. this one was one of many.

mikä muumi? :)

Muumipeikko
[ ] Sanon paljon kaksimielisesti ajateltavia asioita
[x] Pidän seikkailusta
[/] Olen kiltti
[x] Nukun paljon talvella
[ ] Ystäväni joutuu jättämään minut usein lähtiessään itse matkoille
[x] ..se masentaa/masentaisi minua
[ ] Laitan toisten tarpeet omieni edelle
[/] Olen mustasukkainen

4

Niiskuneiti
[/] Olen turhamainen
[x] Pidän kauniista asioista
[x] Minusta on ihanaa pyntätä itseään meikeillä ja koruilla (ja joskus vaatteillakin).
[ ] Osaan olla pahimmallani kunnon drama queen.
[x] Haluan huolehtia muista.
[x] Odotan että prinssi pelastaa minut pulasta, ettei minun tarvitsisi tehdä jotakin asiaa itse.
[] Kilahdan totaalisesti jos hattivatti polttaa otsatukkani. (Ja murjotan siitä monen päivän ajan)
[x] Minussa on pientä kotihengettären vikaa.

5.5

Muumimamma
[ ] Annan aina periksi
[/] Olen hyvin huolehtivainen
[/] Kaikki ovat omalla tavallaan kauniita ja ihania ihmisiä
[/] Olen ymmärtäväinen
[ ] En suutu miltei koskaan
[x] Olen hyvä laittamaan ruokaa
[/] En tahdo pahoittaa kenenkään mieltä
[x] 'Järjestettäisiinkö juhlat? Tehtäisiin hyvää ruokaa ja kutsuttaisiin kaikki ystävät!'
[/] Olen aina valmis kuuntelemaan toisten murheita

4.5

Nipsu
[ ] Olen materialisti
[ ] Olen hyvin ahne
[x] Hyvä ruoka on heikkouteni
[/] Olen pelokas
[x] Olen mukavuudenhaluinen
[x] Olen aamu-uninen
[ ] Hotkin syödessäni
[ ] Olen pitkä
[/] Inhoan kylmää

4

Pikku Myy
[ ] Olen pieni
[/]..mutta pippurinen!
[ ] Puren
[x] Pidän puoliani
[ ] En pelkää mitään tai ketään
[ ] Olen aggressiivinen
[x] Kuitenkin ihan mukava
[ ] Olen tomera
[ ] En kuitenkaan johtaja-tyyppiä

2.5

Niisku
[x] Olen älykäs
[x] Saan hulluja ideoita
[ ] Saatan vaikuttaa etäiseltä tai viileältä
[ ] Olen enemmän looginen, kuin tunteellinen
[ ] Voin tehdä 20 tuntia työtä putkeen täysin tyytyväisenä
[/] Työ/koulu on minulle tärkeää
[ ] Nolostun, jos joudun romanttiseen/tunteelliseen tilanteeseen
[ /] Haluaisin olla/olen keksijä
[/] Työnteko on hauskaa!

3.5

Muumipappa
[ ] Olen arvovaltainen
[ ] Olen rapakunnossa
[x] Kerron mielelläni tarinoita muille
[/] Olen laiska
[/] Menen sekaisin, jos näen/näkisin itsessäni vanhuudenmerkkejä
[/] Tahtoisin olla ikuisesti nuori ja vetreä
[] Menetän hermoni nopeasti
[ ] Olen heinänuhan uhri
[/] Kaikesta huolimatta olen jalomielinen

3

Mörkö
[/] Viihdyn yksinäni
[/ ] tai ainakin olen usein yksinäni
[ ] Olen katkera
[/ ] Olen melankolinen
[ ] Näytän kärsivältä ja/tai surulliselta
[ ] Jotkut saattavat pelätä minua
[ ] Minulle on sanottu, että jäädytän kaiken, mihin kosken
[ ] Jotkut ajattelevat minut sympaattisena, toiset taas inhottavana ja ilkeänä

1.5

Haisuli
[ ] Olen varsinainen kiusankappale
[ ] En piittaa seurauksista
[ ] ..useimmiten niitä ei ole
[ ] Olen varsinainen uivelo
[ ] Ihmiset ajattelevat minut ilkeänä
[x]..mutta en sitä oikeasti ole
[/] Härnääminen on hauskaa
[ ] Jos veljeni kaatuu ansakuoppaan, kaikki tietävät heti, kuka sen ansakuopan on virittänyt: minä
[ ] Minulla ei oikein ole ystäviä

1.5

Nuuskamuikkunen
[x] Olen syvällinen
[x] Pidän ihmisten seurasta
[x] ..mutta vastapainoksi tarvitsen omaa aikaa
[x] Jaksan kävellä hurjan pitkiä matkoja
[/]..vapaaehtoisesti
[x] Otan yleensä huomioon myös toiset
[x] Olen itsepäinen
[x] Olen filosofinen
[x] Nautin ulkoilusta ja telttailusta

8.5

Hemuli
[/] Olen kohtelias
[x] Olen luonnonlapsi
[x] Olen taipuvainen liioitteluun
[ ] Keräilen kasveja tai postimerkkejä
[/] Kiinnostuksenkohteeni vaihtelevat tiuhaan
[ ] Myönnän yleensä erehdykseni
[/] Olen kirjaviisas
[ ] Pukeudun usein violettiin
[x] Olen ystävällinen

4.5

Vilijonkka
[ ] Olen hienostunut
[/] Olen kunnollinen
[ ] En pidä epäsiisteistä ja meluavista ihmisistä
[x] Tahdon kasvattaa lapseni hyvin
[/] ..joka tarkoittaa sitä, että he lukevat ja opiskelevat paljon, tietävät mikä on oikein ja mikä väärin, eivätkä ole äänekkäitä ja rasavillejä
[ ] Olen tiukkapipoinen
[ ] Saan hepulin, jos joku jättää sukkansa makuuhuoneen lattialle
[/] Olen ylpeä
[/] Olen pikkutarkka

3

Ninni
[ ] Olen huomaamaton
[ ] Joku sukulaiseni on kohdellut minua erittäin kylmästi
[x ] Minulla on huono itsetunto
[ ] Olen kuin näkymätön
[ ] En puhu lähes koskaan
[ ] ..ja puhuessani ääneni on hiljainen ja heikko
[x] Olen saamassa itsevarmuutta
[x] Puolustan ystäviäni
[/] ..vaikka se onkin pelottavaa

3.5

Eniten nuuskamuikkunen, sitten niiskuneiti. Siis seikkailevaa prinsessatyyppiä?