Hyvää Uutta Vuotta!

Most wonderful and delightful New Year
to all my loved ones!!
And especially for you!

xx,
//E

Have a Happy Happy Christmas!

...and Hanukkah full of light and hope!

And if you want to know more about what is happening to me
at this season in finnish read mty newsletter from here
English version added later! (or just email and ask me!)

Celebrating the birth of Our Saviour,
Christ, the One and Only Messiah, Lord Jesus,

//E

whhoooaaaa!!!!

these five brilliantly made short movies are totally worth watching!
So click HERE and journey begins...!!!
warning: this 24-7 virus is proven to be highly contagious!

:)

more of these wonderful cartoons at ASBO

link - link - link (beauty of blogosphere)

I've been regularly reading Brian Heasley's blog since may 2007,
and enjoy also his fine way of finding every now and then
cutting edge pieces from elsewhere in blogosphere, like
this "Refreshing insights on Missional church from Dan Kimball"
article posted on his blog...

So, check this must read:
CLICK HERE

word for today.

When Jesus saw his ministry drawing huge
crowds, he climbed a hillside. Those who
were apprenticed to him, the committed,
climbed with him. Arriving at a quiet place,
he sat down and taught his climbing companions.
This is what he said:
"You're blessed when you're at the end
of your rope. With less of you there is
more of God and his rule.
"You're blessed when you feel you've
lost what is most dear to you.
Only then can you be embraced
by the One most dear to you.
"You're blessed when you're content with
just who you are—no more, no less.
That's the moment you find yourselves
proud owners of everything that
can't be bought.
"You're blessed when you've worked
up a good appetite for God. He's food
and drink in the best meal you'll ever eat.
"You're blessed when you care. At the moment
of being 'care-full,' you find yourselves cared for.
"You're blessed when you get your inside
world—your mind and heart—put right.
Then you can see God in the outside world.
"You're blessed when you can show
people how to cooperate instead of
compete or fight. That's when you discover
who you really are, and your place in God's family.
"You're blessed when your commitment
to God provokes persecution.
The persecution drives you even
deeper into God's kingdom.
"Not only that—count yourselves blessed
every time people put you down or throw
you out or speak lies about you to
discredit me. What it means is that the truth
is too close for comfort and they are uncomfortable.
You can be glad when that happens
—give a cheer, even!—
for though they don't like it, I do!
And all heaven applauds.
And know that you are in good company.
My prophets and witnesses have always
gotten into this kind of trouble.”
matt.5:1-12 [MSG]

how did you get here?

Hi guys,
just few questions, out of mere curiosity,...

who are you?
how did you get here on my blog?
is there something you would like me to write about?

Please take a 30 seconds to answer on my comments!

This only because i lost my traffic follower
link and can't be bothered to spy on you
but i see the number of page hits
keeps growing, not sure why and by who :)

And i recently added my blog address
on my facebook profile, which i'm still not sure about...
:)

another daylight.

Sorry guys for lack of blogging recently,
i haven't been so clear on so many things lately
and looks like i'm not so good with
processing thoughts by writing.
And my macbook doesn't seem to support blogspot
too well for some random reason.

Greetings from all over the country, last week i traveled
approx. 3000 kilometres, first from south to north of
Finland and then back south and then from east to west
and back to south-east again.
Lapland is definitely one of my favorite parts of Finland,
specially in winter, the amount of snow and peace
and winter sports all rolled in to one wonderful
holiday experience which feels like dream,
not least because of lack of sleep on the road.

Random thought on communal living from this morning...
- who ever leaves the house first gets to were the
warmest winter jacket, as it is coldest early in the morning.
When living together with people you learn so much
about yourself. And i think also that true love in
living together is to let those who can't smile
in early morning hours be grumpy and those who need
their morning coffee before they can't think reasonably
...well, why don't you make the coffee for them?

They said in the radio today that core idea of christianity is
love. I disagree, i think core of christianity is Christ himself.
What is love if it's apart from God?

Always on His mind.

Suddenly... i find my self smiling more often.
I feel that there's something in the air,
something... Tide is changing.
For better or for worse, i don't really even care.
* Gazing to eternity with a smile that reaches eyes and soul...*

Give me a wise heart, i pray.

"Romeo and Out"

Accurate or not, who knows?

Sorry guys there's no translation. Might be provided later ;)
Tein yhen hassun tosi nopean testin netissä, tämmöinen oli tulos :)

Hmm... 

Nauttii aistillisuudesta , ystävällisyydestä
ja herkkyydestä, mutta säilyttää kriittisyyden ja
estää haltioitumisen ellei aitous ja lahjomattomuus ole
ehdottomasti taattu. Tästä johtuen pitää tiukasti
kontrollissa tunnesitoutumisen tietääkseen mikä hänen
asemansa on. Vaatii täyttä vilpittömyyttä suojautuakseen
 taipumuksestaan olla liian luottavainen. Kontrolloitua
ja analyyttistä myötämielisyyttä.
Tavoittelee menestystä, aktiivista ja elämyksellistä elämää.
Haluaa kehittyä vapaasti ja vapautua epävarmuuden kahleista,
voittaa ja elää kiihkeästi. Seurallinen ja innostuva.
Vastaanottavainen kaikenlaiselle  uudelle ja
mielenkiintoiselle. Monia kiinnostuksen kohteita
ja haluaa laajentaa kokemuspiiriään.
Optimistinen tulevaisuuden suhteen.

cleaning up my closet...

mMMmmm...(*while writing, i'm eating rasberries
with vanilla yoghurt and maple syrup*) I feel like
a nerd here, have two computers in front of
my nose, another one with wall size screen and
another is funky lil macbook.
Haha. And children, do not eat on your keyboard at home!

My new macbook is real prayer answer,
it is a gift which makes me feel so blessed
and wonder what would God like me
to use it for. It's incredible to suddenly
have both macbook and digital SRL camera.
Long term dream come true. - ***** - !!

On the other hand, since three weeks ago i have
been once again having mild age crisis.
(NOTE: MILD, not MIDDLE!!!, not THAT old yet!)
Whole crisis thing is quite pointless really!!!
But i had this reoccurring dream that i had
as a child dreamt of many things and none of
them had happened this far. Fealt like a failure.
Well then, i found this old box where i used to
store all kind of "important papers",
school diplomas, notes, letters etc.
From there i also found a letter which we had to
write to ourselves at school when i was
in beginning of the 7th grade. In this letter
assingment was to imagine, what we would be like
when we are 19, 30 and 45 years old.
It was quite funny to see my 13-year old self to be so
influenced by books i had been reading and by music
i had been listening. One thing i was a bit sad to
find out about: my plans hadn't included God.
I know i believed in God back then, but i probably
had never yet understood how much I personally meant
to Him and how much interest he showed (and still does)
to my every day life, dreams, hopes and plans.
It is actually quite miraculous how God did hijack
my life in last ten years. I wouldn't trade it away
now for any treasure or wealth or success and i'm looking so much
forward to next ten years and finding out
where all this is leading to...
I luv my life, i luv my God.

Circle Zion, take her measure,
count her fortress peaks,
Gaze long at her sloping bulwark,
climb her citadel heights—
Then you can tell the next generation
detail by detail the story of God,
Our God forever,
who guides us till the end of time."
ps. 48:12-14

post scriptum.
and one more thing about that letter:
All those things that i had written down
that i would be when i'm 30 i have either
done, have plenty of time to do or don't
want anymore. So much for that worry!! Haha.

...when poor come to be served by the King...

But you'll have the title "Priests of God,"
   honored as ministers of our God.
You'll feast on the bounty of nations,
   you'll bask in their glory.
Because you got a double dose of trouble
   and more than your share of contempt,
Your inheritance in the land will be doubled
   and your joy go on forever.
"Because I, God, love fair dealing 

and hate thievery and crime,

I'll pay your wages on time and in full, 

and establish my eternal covenant with you.

Your descendants will become well-known all over. 

Your children in foreign countries

Will be recognized at once 

as the people I have blessed."
I will sing for joy in God, 
   
explode in praise from deep in my soul!

He dressed me up in a suit of salvation, 
   
he outfitted me in a robe of righteousness,

As a bridegroom who puts on a tuxedo 
   
and a bride a jeweled tiara.

For as the earth bursts with spring
wildflowers, 
   and as a garden cascades
with blossoms,
So the Master, God,
brings righteousness into full bloom 

and puts praise on display before the nations.
(isa.61:6-11 MSG)

if u haven't...

...yet read these two articles, then u should so it now.
"A recurring dream" by Andy F
"Announcing a new training initiative: Springboard 2009" by Scot B

Somewhere along these lines is the path i want to follow.
Want to walk with me?

"..resist enemy, keep standing firm, in every situation, night and day shout your praises and thank Lord for He is good.."

God is so good.

His goodness is not dependent

on my feelings, status quo or what i know.

He has surprised me so hugely

and i know that i shouldn't be satisfied

with this but keep expecting more.

I am so blessed by having people around

me who trust on Lord and

believe in me too. =)

Solid.

Joy.

pouring out moody blues

Blaah.
I'm so bored and feeling lonely
and angry to myself and frustrated.
There is plenty to do, more than
two days workload undone, waiting.
I can't find enough self discipline
to tackle the load and not enough motivation
to find the discipline.
It's raining outside.
It looks like all my friendships have
shrunk in to a stage where you only call
one when you either need something or something
needs to be done.

I can only see my dreams and everything drift away.
Dwell in selfpity.

I should get a job but am terribly frightened
of the process.
Not sure what to do.

I hate tuesdays.

ps. gotta love the autumn colors, after all X)

no more milk.

i need church.

i believe people are the church, as my brother said but,
i see few problems there. It isn't very simple.
To be a church needs dedication and determination.
Awful lot of both. And it needs community.
I can't be church alone. So i need to step outside
of my comfort zone and share life to be church.
To seek others who are willing to be church with me.

By my experience, there are not many people
(even among christians ;)
who want to pray together when they meet friends.
Or read and talk about the word of God.
Those things are considerad as religious.
Even though you could
do both in m***nalds while eating b*gm*c.

I dearly love both, especially when shared
with people i love.
(And not talking about b*gm*cs here but former two!)
And these things are what church is to me.
Simple as that. "They committed themselves
to the teaching of the apostles, the life together,
the common meal, and the prayers."

Repeat: i think it takes a lot of determination to

dedicate one's life to a rythm of prayer, eating together,
reading Bible together...and so on.
But if you make it to work,
by grace of God,
it is the best way of the church in the world.

Milk. If church only evangelizes, night after night,

same basic message, then there is a danger
of having a whole heap of christians who never
grow up.Evangelize every night, every meeting
and you always just milk-feed.But if you challenge
yourself and your church to live it up, in everyday life,
if you manage to dig deeper, challenge

yourself and your fellows to become a message,

then your lives become an evidence,

and people who don't know God are also challenged,

they are treated differently,
and they will see and

they will believe.

Be enthuastic, live, fail and learn

and breath God, live God and love God
with everything you are.

In great commission Jesus did not say

go and evangelize, he said,
"Go out and train everyone you meet,
far and near, in this way of life, marking them
by baptism in the threefold name: Father, Son,
and Holy Spirit. Then instruct them in the
practice of all I have commanded you.
I'll be with you as you do this, day after day
after day, right up to the end of the age."

What is the best way to train?
What have been the life-changing experiences for you?

...

..:on agendas:..

the "new black" of the autumn,
top list...

- communities, communal living
- organic food
- fatherhood
- intuition
- (new) atheistic world view and it's consequences on understanding of value of human being
- concept of church
- concept of love and tolerating things in the name of love
- teachings of Jesus
- friendship
- recycling clothes
- teenage angst
- fashion photography
- elections (why should we ever be interested?)

Feel free to share your opinion on selected topic.

secret.

what i heard today...

"So—who is like me?
Who holds a candle to me?" says The Holy.
Look at the night skies:
Who do you think made all this?
Who marches this army of stars out each night,
counts them off, calls each by name
—so magnificent! so powerful!—
and never overlooks a single one?

Why would you ever complain, O Jacob,
or, whine, Israel, saying,
"God has lost track of me.
He doesn't care what happens to me"?
Don't you know anything? Haven't you been listening?
God doesn't come and go. God lasts.
He's Creator of all you can see or imagine.
He doesn't get tired out, doesn't pause to catch his breath.
And he knows everything, inside and out.
He energizes those who get tired,
gives fresh strength to dropouts.
For even young people tire and drop out,
young folk in their prime stumble and fall.
But those who wait upon God get fresh strength.

They spread their wings and soar like eagles,

They run and don't get tired,

they walk and don't lag behind.

(Isa. 40:25-31 MSG)

song.

I close my eyes and pretend to be all at sea Feel the breeze soothing my tear burning face and i laugh out loud at the sound of the crashing waves Seagulls scream your name Don't want to think it's all allright we have to fight for taking this truth to destination it is too precious to waste The mist closes us in like some ghostly ballet Can't see the horizon But hey, it is going to be a new day Still today.

don't i feel...

...shallow.
I just spent few (or more) minutes
to read some really good stuff from
people listed here on the right side------>
And then i started feeling a bit selfish,
self-obsessed and shallow,
as everyone else seemed to be writing
genius and deep and meaningful things.
Oh boy.
*break here, just learned to say in arabic
"our God is our peace"*
Well. Without any self-pity,
i guess i need conversation to promt me
to more deeper stuff, and as long as
this continues being monologue,
i'll keep just chatting...
haha. And did i have a point here?
Not so, maybe, but i love you, miss you
and look forward to some great conversations.
xx,
gossip girl ;)

Mundane Monday

To find and listen music i have been listening
while writing this blog entry, surf to www.last.fm
and search for station called "music like misty edwards".
Sorry i have been flooding this blog with quotes,
but sometimes i just find that they have already phrased
(not sure if that is english haha) my thoughts better
than i ever could and sometimes i just find them amusing,
disagreeable or thought raising... This one i found from
my friend's quotes wall on facebook, so thanks Cal,
i really liked this one. Sometimes danger is the most attractive
quality of a man, especially if he is dangerous but trusted to be good.

"All men dream: but not equally. Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds wake in the day to find that it was vanity: but the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act out their dream with open eyes, to make it possible."
- T.E. Lawrence, Seven Pillars of Wisdom

Quoting my brother "But as Mr Beaver so rightly says, "...course he isn't safe. But he is good."
(read more from here )

Dreaming, potential of adventures, a dash of danger int the air, and trusting how God is good.
I guess this not so mundane monday after all.

Amazing.

Since last blog entrance things have been
suddenly moving fast forward and i am just
sitting here and wondering what actually is happening.
Well, along everything else, God intervened
and made all things new aka he took my dreams
and plans, shook them around and organised
them in whole different way which i hadn't
even dreamt of.
I know it doesn't make much sense, i have no
idea what is going on, but the bottom line
is that God is good, and
next, i'm going to "Home".
After a long, almost unbearable season of waiting,
i have jumped, i'm on the air and
looking forward to land on Father's arms.

Why?

...God's answer to Job's archetypal cry of "Why?" is simply, "Look at Me" (see Job 38-41). "My ears have heard of you but now my eyes have seen you," cries Job in awe, as if his sufferings have simply evaporated (42:5). The book of Job is threrefore both the most frustrating and enlightening treatment of unanswered prayer in the Bible, because God's solution to so much misery is merely and ultimately to reveal His greatness.

- Pete Greig, God on mute, p.76-77

I rest my case.

100.

Babel.

Language is the blood of the soul into which thoughts run and out of which they grow.
- Oliver Wendell Holmes

When you go to a country, you must learn how to say two things: how to ask for food, and to tell a woman that you love her. Of these the second is more important, for if you tell a woman you love her she will certainly feed you.
- Louis L'Amour

Any time you think some other language is strange, remember that yours is just as strange, you're just used to it.
- Linguistic Mystic

Better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to speak out and remove all doubt.
- Abraham Lincoln

Language is an anonymous, collective and unconscious art; the result of the creativity of thousands of generations.
- Edward Sapir

Own only what you can carry with you; know language, know countries, know people. Let your memory be your travel bag.
- Alexander Solzhenitsyn

Kindness is the language which the deaf can hear and the blind can see.
- Mark Twain

They spell it Vinci and pronounce it 'Vinchy': foreigners always spell better than they pronounce.
- Mark Twain

For more, visit www.omniglot.com

doesn't my ol' pal toby say it well

world needs...

I absolutely adore the fact
that there are
people
who love and believe
and follow what they believe in
they live for it
they are passionate
and it is contagious

this morning i love flow mo b-boys, no longer music,
24-7prayer people and what they do.

Watch this and part 2 aswell. Let it sink in.

* glimpse *

nauraa silmät viiruina
hutunkeittoa tämä elämä
jokin äänessäsi
vain rohkaisi minua
hyppäämään

vaikka jossen koskaan enää mitään
niin sinä olet
siellä jossakin
ja uimme yhdessä
vastavirtaan


(sorry guys, had to use my
beautiful native language,
this just doesn't translate)

leed of lekker [..comprehending..]

Just few randoms thoughts
in compressed list,
i have a feeling that i'll be back
for these later as research&development
process evolves...

* man was created in wilderness and
brought to garden of eden. woman was
created in the garden.

* attitude is always the most important,
actions follow attitudes.

* somehow, sometimes, unpredictability
scares man, because it might put
he's strenght on test, that also displays
that something in him is hurt (aka he isn't
sure if he has what it takes)

* attitude towards men often equals as attitude
towards God

* it is a great challenge to be small in numbers
but still make a tremendous impact

* God loves to work through relationships,
He prefers relationships

Blogging

Now my friends,
it's been long since i said this last time,
so i think i get away without being accused
to repeat myself too frequently...
1) i apologise for writing in pure finglish,
it is serving as a compromise to my finnish and
english speaking readers. And native english
speakers get to laugh more often than others.
2) feel free to comment, or not to comment :)

on reproducing...

God blessed them:
"Prosper! Reproduce! Fill Earth! Take charge!
Be responsible for fish in the sea and birds in the air,
for every living thing that moves on the face of Earth."

I don't think that God ever lays off a promise He's said.
I say this, I could be wrong...

Awhile ago i was talking with my friend
about children and if she ever wanted any and
how complicated it is to raise them right.
As a conclusion she said that
as the world is so evil place
and as no matter what you do you can get it wrong,
she in longer sure if she will any want kids.

I didn't know what to say,
but agreed that raising children doesn't seem to
be the easiest task on earth.

Few days later,
i came back to this thought.

I have two wonderful sisters and one awesome brother
and many of my closest friends are like siblings to me.
I have always thought that we are not that many and
that i'd love to have even more sisters and brothers.
I am so thankful that my parents had me and my sisters and brother.
I think that it is a blessing.

If the world is evil place,
God has often used my brothers and sisters to
fight against evil.
To bring comfort, strenght, healing, beauty, intimacy,
hope, encouragement, hugs and kisses
from Him to the broken world and fallen, wounded hearts.

So,
One day,
I do want to have children,
I hope God will bless me with children,
biological and spiritual.
I hope I can raise my children
to be freedom fighters,
teach them, by love of God,
to be gentle but fierce.
To change the world for better,
to bring heaven on earth.

archives

Check out this video: About friendship and devotion.



I was going trough my video and photo archives when we were making
a photo album for my brother who moved to california,
and i found few classics... :)

Wonders and wanderers.

Good evening my dear friends.

It's been awhile, i apologise.
But i think it's finally time to return
from summer holiday.
Not that i would have more or less to say
than for few previous months,
but i *sniffing the air* can smell a different
breeze blowing, something has happened.

I think i see a dawn for a long waited and promised...
It's a new day.

Urbaani Unelma 2007 24-7 Prayer Room

SORRY PPL:
BLOG ON SUMMER HOLIDAY:
BE BACK LATER.
LOVE YOU.

ten minutes sketch.
my life is already somewhere
else,
i'd like to find that place.
Just when i thought
i'm in a happy place
for ever
worries came strolling
in from all doors and windows
and maybe even walls.
I choose to TRUST.
And wait.

So here's what I want you to do,
God helping you:
Take your everyday, ordinary life
—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work,
and walking-around life—
and place it before God
as an offering. Embracing what
God does for you is the best
thing you can do for him.
Don't become so well-adjusted
to your culture that you fit into
it without even thinking. Instead,
fix your attention on God.
You'll be changed from the inside out.
Readily recognize what he
wants from you, and quickly
respond to it. Unlike the culture
around you, always dragging
you down to its level of immaturity,
God brings the best out of you,
develops well-formed
maturity in you.
(rom.12:1-2 MSG)

Who am I that You
are mindful of me
That You hear me
when I call
Is it true that
You are thinking of me
How You love me
it's amazing

I am a friend of God
I am a friend of God
I am a friend of God
He calls me friend

God Almighty, Lord of Glory
You have called me friend

My hands hold safly
to my dreams
Clutching tightly
not one has fallen
So many years
I've shaped each one
Reflecting my heart
showing who I am
Now you're asking
me to show
What I'm holding
oh so tightly
Can't open my hands
can't let go
Does it matter?
Should I show you?
Can't you let me go?

Surrender, surrender
you whisper gently
You say I will be free
I know but
can't you see?
My dreams are me.
My dreams are me

You say you have
a plan for me
And that you want
the best for my life
Told me the world
had yet to see
What you can
do with one
That's committed
to Your calling
I know of course
what I should do
That I can't hold
these dreams forever
If I give them
now to You
Will You take
them away forever?
Or can I dream again?

Barlow girl - Surrender

(click on pics to see them bigger)

some band templates from illustrator
inspired me to draw these pieces. it feels
like nobody here after i have removed
visitor detector and counter. should
code them back :)
i have been creative all day. feel bit
tired but relieved that in a week it's
going to be over for a while. speaking
pretty awful finglish today, blame
(and bless) al*****ns.

often just when you thought that things
run smoothly and it's all planned
things change.
Another illustrator to entertain.
xxx

opponointia.

"The only people for me are the mad ones,
the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk,
mad to be saved, desirous of everything
at the same time, the ones who never
yawn or say commonplace thing,
but burn, burn, burn,
like fabulous yellow roman candles
exploding like spiders
across the stars..."

- Jack Kerouac: On the Road

"To see a world in a grain of sand,
And heaven in a wild flower,
Hold infinity in the palm of hand,
And eternity in an hour"

- William Blake: Ideas of Good and Evil

Sights and visions...

I can't remember exactly when it started,
it certainly know that it hasn't been here for long.
But it keeps coming back more often.
That deep, profound feeling of happiness.
Overflowing but inside.
I wonder if it could have something to do with these...

John 15:11 "...so that my joy may be in you
and that your joy may be complete."
2. Cor. 7:4 "...in all our troubles my joy knows no bounds."
Gal 5:22 "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy,..."

The vision. We had 4 hr long training
session yesterday. It sounds crazy, but
i got this strong feeling that it already is
something More. More than just us.
More than just our capability, creativity
and coreography. It's like a breathing,
living prayer. I hope the audience will
feel and see it too.
And more.

Have a nice, blessed weekend!

yorkshire angels and what a glorious morning

"Beautiful one I love
Beautiful one I adore
Beautiful one my soul must sing

Powerful so powerful your glory fills the skies
Your mighty works displayed for all to see
The beauty of your majesty awakes my heart to sing
How marvelous, how wonderful you are"

- Chris Tomlin: Beautiful one

Just so happy this morning with and without many
apparent reasons. Even thought i broke my
favorite mug last nite.. (Which i nearly cried over
for, i really was nice and big and
a gift from a friend from london)
And even thought it's beautiful sunshiny day
and i plan to work inside on computer for
next 7 hrs. Just insides of me bubble with happiness.

Yesterday night i read a lovely book,
classic story, "the Secret Garden". Loved the
way how they described change happening in
the children. Innocent, sweet lil book.

Have a wee bit of patience, laddie.
* coffee break*

Lately everyone seems to be a bit on edge
in school, in next few weeks
we are going to have to hand in reports of
advanced special studies and bachelor's theses.

Walking back to home after school yesterday
i saw bunch of young men playing football on field
near my house. It looked like great fun
and i realised how much i miss playing team sports.
Or just having group of friends living
in neighbourhood, always up for a game or
play outside. Some of the best memories of
childhood times are memories
of playing outside with friends and kids from
the block. We must have known dozens of
different games and sports.
My brother has often heard the story of first
english word he learned by himself.
We lived in kibbutz and playing football was
favourite childrens favourite pastime. At twilight
one day my brother came home running happily
and asked my mum: "Mum, what's in finnish
flai goukiipr?" Took awhile from mum to figure
out that word this 7-year old was looking
for was flying goalkeeper. :)

:) what makes you happy today?

sunshine. ice cream. swimming. flipflops.
sand. ultimate. mountain bikes. swiss alps. boys.
girls. hugs. chocolate. coffee.
latte. toffee. vanilla. surf. waves.
snow. snow fights. winter clothes. billabong.
animal store. skate boards. camera. jack.
most popular names in uk.
grace. gifts. sparkles. glitter.
movies. kite runner. breeze.
24-7breeze. anni&antti. babies.
fleece. warmness of blanket.
good night sleep.

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For 30 seconds list things that make
you happy today. Smiling brainstorm.

Just a borrowed thought..

...

no no no.

There is not enough in me to be the fulfilment of
anybody's dreams. I am not enough to be centre
of anyone's universe.

But i want to learn to love and be loved.
I want to overcome all fears and be transparent,
unlocked, sincere and open.

I want to learn to express my love by serving,
caring, sharing, feeding, entertaining and helping.
By being vulnerable, attainable and available.
By learning how to protect myself and let others
protect me.

By learning how to respect and cherish those whom i love
and those i don't.

I want to learn to be captivating.

I want to learn to laugh like i have never been hurt,
to sing like nobody is listening, to pray like it
all depends on God and live like it all depends on me.

And i don't mind, if someday my prince will come and
propose a partnership in where all above could be practised.
*blush*

..slivers of light..

What i most love about spring time is mornings.
After long dark winter days it's such a delight
to wake up in the morning with sunshining through
windows and playing with shadows on my wall.
Oh, see the Beauty of the Light.

For late breakfast i had hug cup of good PG's tea, tuna&mayo sandwich,
branflakes and two plums. Oh, Life of Simple delicacies..

Lately i have been so be grateful for small mercies
that have walked in to my life in form of brothers and sisters.
I have been blessed with the most beautiful, gifted and loving
sisters and brothers. Three of them from same mother and brother
and whole bunch of them that have been just Godsend.
Thanks guys, you know who you are, and i feel that i just don't
have words good enough to tell what a difference in the world you are.

I have been also going arounf in circles around few thoughts, which
i'd like to share with you. They are not doctrines set in stone, but
something i have found fascinating and thought provoking.
Yes, most of you are already familiar with these...

Nevertheless,...


Transparency. Holiness must be
transparent. It is, after all, to stand in the light and let the light
go through you, shine and reflect. To stand in love and let love shine
through you. In holiness there's nothing to hide. It is when nothing is
everything. Sin causes hiding. It builds facades.

Unconditional. What is unconditional
love? Can i accept unconditional love? World's love is always conditional.
World's love is selfish. There is no goodness apart from God.
My goodness is nothing apart from God.
There is no love outside of God.
And He paid price of love, in love and for love.
He paid full price to be able to love us unconditionally. Again.

Way. Exploring the way of being.
We are made as image of the great "I am". Capture moment, seize the day.
Carpe diem. Learn to be while you walk.

Truth. How did it get so popular
that we can build our own truths? And how easily we accept our wounds as
truth. Enemy is nothing but impostor and liar, twisting and altering truth.

Life. Is a gift. How does it change
my living and thinking if i would realise that i have eternal life.
God's love is shown best when shared as life.

h like...

hilla.

huskies.

horsemanship.

high heels.

hobbits.

hummus.

hospitality.

heavenly host.

hypothalamus.

homme bien élevé.

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24/7breeze..

..coming up this summer. stay tuned.

musteläikkätesti.

studying possibilities of illustrator. loving it.

more random self portrait art.

in my illustrator class first task was to create self portrait. this one was one of many.

mikä muumi? :)

Muumipeikko
[ ] Sanon paljon kaksimielisesti ajateltavia asioita
[x] Pidän seikkailusta
[/] Olen kiltti
[x] Nukun paljon talvella
[ ] Ystäväni joutuu jättämään minut usein lähtiessään itse matkoille
[x] ..se masentaa/masentaisi minua
[ ] Laitan toisten tarpeet omieni edelle
[/] Olen mustasukkainen

4

Niiskuneiti
[/] Olen turhamainen
[x] Pidän kauniista asioista
[x] Minusta on ihanaa pyntätä itseään meikeillä ja koruilla (ja joskus vaatteillakin).
[ ] Osaan olla pahimmallani kunnon drama queen.
[x] Haluan huolehtia muista.
[x] Odotan että prinssi pelastaa minut pulasta, ettei minun tarvitsisi tehdä jotakin asiaa itse.
[] Kilahdan totaalisesti jos hattivatti polttaa otsatukkani. (Ja murjotan siitä monen päivän ajan)
[x] Minussa on pientä kotihengettären vikaa.

5.5

Muumimamma
[ ] Annan aina periksi
[/] Olen hyvin huolehtivainen
[/] Kaikki ovat omalla tavallaan kauniita ja ihania ihmisiä
[/] Olen ymmärtäväinen
[ ] En suutu miltei koskaan
[x] Olen hyvä laittamaan ruokaa
[/] En tahdo pahoittaa kenenkään mieltä
[x] 'Järjestettäisiinkö juhlat? Tehtäisiin hyvää ruokaa ja kutsuttaisiin kaikki ystävät!'
[/] Olen aina valmis kuuntelemaan toisten murheita

4.5

Nipsu
[ ] Olen materialisti
[ ] Olen hyvin ahne
[x] Hyvä ruoka on heikkouteni
[/] Olen pelokas
[x] Olen mukavuudenhaluinen
[x] Olen aamu-uninen
[ ] Hotkin syödessäni
[ ] Olen pitkä
[/] Inhoan kylmää

4

Pikku Myy
[ ] Olen pieni
[/]..mutta pippurinen!
[ ] Puren
[x] Pidän puoliani
[ ] En pelkää mitään tai ketään
[ ] Olen aggressiivinen
[x] Kuitenkin ihan mukava
[ ] Olen tomera
[ ] En kuitenkaan johtaja-tyyppiä

2.5

Niisku
[x] Olen älykäs
[x] Saan hulluja ideoita
[ ] Saatan vaikuttaa etäiseltä tai viileältä
[ ] Olen enemmän looginen, kuin tunteellinen
[ ] Voin tehdä 20 tuntia työtä putkeen täysin tyytyväisenä
[/] Työ/koulu on minulle tärkeää
[ ] Nolostun, jos joudun romanttiseen/tunteelliseen tilanteeseen
[ /] Haluaisin olla/olen keksijä
[/] Työnteko on hauskaa!

3.5

Muumipappa
[ ] Olen arvovaltainen
[ ] Olen rapakunnossa
[x] Kerron mielelläni tarinoita muille
[/] Olen laiska
[/] Menen sekaisin, jos näen/näkisin itsessäni vanhuudenmerkkejä
[/] Tahtoisin olla ikuisesti nuori ja vetreä
[] Menetän hermoni nopeasti
[ ] Olen heinänuhan uhri
[/] Kaikesta huolimatta olen jalomielinen

3

Mörkö
[/] Viihdyn yksinäni
[/ ] tai ainakin olen usein yksinäni
[ ] Olen katkera
[/ ] Olen melankolinen
[ ] Näytän kärsivältä ja/tai surulliselta
[ ] Jotkut saattavat pelätä minua
[ ] Minulle on sanottu, että jäädytän kaiken, mihin kosken
[ ] Jotkut ajattelevat minut sympaattisena, toiset taas inhottavana ja ilkeänä

1.5

Haisuli
[ ] Olen varsinainen kiusankappale
[ ] En piittaa seurauksista
[ ] ..useimmiten niitä ei ole
[ ] Olen varsinainen uivelo
[ ] Ihmiset ajattelevat minut ilkeänä
[x]..mutta en sitä oikeasti ole
[/] Härnääminen on hauskaa
[ ] Jos veljeni kaatuu ansakuoppaan, kaikki tietävät heti, kuka sen ansakuopan on virittänyt: minä
[ ] Minulla ei oikein ole ystäviä

1.5

Nuuskamuikkunen
[x] Olen syvällinen
[x] Pidän ihmisten seurasta
[x] ..mutta vastapainoksi tarvitsen omaa aikaa
[x] Jaksan kävellä hurjan pitkiä matkoja
[/]..vapaaehtoisesti
[x] Otan yleensä huomioon myös toiset
[x] Olen itsepäinen
[x] Olen filosofinen
[x] Nautin ulkoilusta ja telttailusta

8.5

Hemuli
[/] Olen kohtelias
[x] Olen luonnonlapsi
[x] Olen taipuvainen liioitteluun
[ ] Keräilen kasveja tai postimerkkejä
[/] Kiinnostuksenkohteeni vaihtelevat tiuhaan
[ ] Myönnän yleensä erehdykseni
[/] Olen kirjaviisas
[ ] Pukeudun usein violettiin
[x] Olen ystävällinen

4.5

Vilijonkka
[ ] Olen hienostunut
[/] Olen kunnollinen
[ ] En pidä epäsiisteistä ja meluavista ihmisistä
[x] Tahdon kasvattaa lapseni hyvin
[/] ..joka tarkoittaa sitä, että he lukevat ja opiskelevat paljon, tietävät mikä on oikein ja mikä väärin, eivätkä ole äänekkäitä ja rasavillejä
[ ] Olen tiukkapipoinen
[ ] Saan hepulin, jos joku jättää sukkansa makuuhuoneen lattialle
[/] Olen ylpeä
[/] Olen pikkutarkka

3

Ninni
[ ] Olen huomaamaton
[ ] Joku sukulaiseni on kohdellut minua erittäin kylmästi
[x ] Minulla on huono itsetunto
[ ] Olen kuin näkymätön
[ ] En puhu lähes koskaan
[ ] ..ja puhuessani ääneni on hiljainen ja heikko
[x] Olen saamassa itsevarmuutta
[x] Puolustan ystäviäni
[/] ..vaikka se onkin pelottavaa

3.5

Eniten nuuskamuikkunen, sitten niiskuneiti. Siis seikkailevaa prinsessatyyppiä?

easter.

(Heikki Tyynysniemi/SK)

On Friday night.
We were about to run straight to Golgata,
we knew they were going there.
Then my sister stopped and said:
"Wait, I want to see Jesus
when he's still alive." So we stopped and waited
and saw them coming. He could barely walk.
We walked in same pace,
sound of roman soldiers march echoed in starbright night.
It was so dark and coold and beautiful.

On sunday morning
I know He lives
and because of that
I may live.

hiljainen viikko.

This is one of my favorite prayers in Bible,
probably also one of the most powerful ones.


"...Jesus,


..remember me


when thou comest

into

thy kingdom."


Luke 23:42

Connections and fine lines.

Fashionblogs have been in fashion for a while.
Maybe i should do my comment on this too.
I like photography and as a small girl
i sometimes dreamed of career in fashion.
Ecologically thinking, fashion is crime.

I have had e-mail since 1997 and mobile phone
since 1998. Yesterday night i wondered about
all this instant messaging culture. Even as I am
using all finest electronical communication devices
and so "reachable" 24-7-365, i think i'm more
lonely than ever before in last 10 yrs. Without
conciously choosing so. Please, bring back
old fashioned community society and face-2-face
friendships.

Or just call or facebook me. :)

upside down.

kevätsäteet häikäisee silmiä
tuhat pientä timanttia
enää hetki niin kaikki
puhkeaa elämään


ojanpientareella pehmeitä kissoja
linnut karjuvat puissa riemuaan
vesi juoksee sulattaa polkujaan

hengitän syvään


lapaset kädessä
loskaa kengässä

hengitän syvään

veri kohisee korvissa
tuuli puhaltaa lävitseni
odotan uusia alkuja
odotan kesää

celebrate.

one thousand.

Today we passed landmark of one thousand downloads.
ONE THOUSAND :D that is plenty, as I know only
very few people who have confessed to be regular
subscribers. :)

But thank you for the music,
show must go on,
hope you find what you are looking for,...

peace and love,

How do you see?

Juno.

I heard first through friend's friends friend that it wasn't worth watching,
and so to avoid uncomfortable situations I didn't go to see it.



But then after seeing some previews I became
more suspicious and watched it anyway. And loved it.

Simpe and not. Black and white with shades and shadows.

I found Juno very pro-life, pro-love, pro-long term
relationships. It raised a good lot of questions
and thoughts and without pointing
one's finger at obvious things it managed to come
across deeply philosophical. And entertaining.
It was somewhat shortest 90minutes in recent
box office hits.

I can recommend it to anyone who thinks
that they can understand and process
idea of possible consequences of (premarital)
sex and that all things and decicions that
people do in movies are not maybe ones people would do
in real life. We turn sometimes to do better,
sometimes worse. :)


After watching Juno I felt like it would be
really good to have some kind
of christian data base or reliable source
to find out what movies are really worth of watching.
My brother then helped me to find
http://www.christianitytoday.com/movies/
and after reading couple of previews of
movies I had seen I think this site is worth
visiting once you are pondering whether
to go to movies or not.

I do not write this to baby-sit, but I personally think
that I don't have to see everything and rather watch or
listen something what I honestly enjoy.
"Everything is permissible"—but not everything is beneficial. "Everything is permissible"—but not everything is constructive..."