Nauttikaa ystävät. Muistakaa, varoitin tästä. Hala dance moves.
perjantaina, elokuuta 24, 2007
tiistaina, elokuuta 21, 2007
Small revelations...
Today I had Arnold's bagel and vanilla frappe for late lunch.
Before me in queue were two boys, about 10-11 years old
litlle dudes. One of them ordered chocolate doughnut but one
obviously didn't have any money on him. While waiting for my order
I saw those two boys sitting at table one eating and one just
keeping him company. It took a long time for my frappe, so
I had time to see how that boy who has his doughnut started
to pull small coins out of his pockets to see if he would
have enough to lend his friend to get a doughnut too.
While they were still counting, i got my order and same time
realised that I had 50cent coin in my pocket.
When walking out from Arnold's, I walked past those boys
and put my 50cent in their pile of coins.
It surprised them fully and their faces were lit up immeteadly.
Took them few seconds to yell "thank yous" after me, but
it came from heart. For 50cents, I felt like million dollars.
Jesus bless those boys and all litlle boys in this land.
Let them be wild and good in their hearts and
shall they be fed above their heads and hearts
and stomachs with your goodness.
-- "The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.' Matt.25:40 --
perjantaina, elokuuta 17, 2007
Me, myself and I (Episode of warrior princess development)
About a year ago my life changed quite radically,
it had been a long process and something that had been under
processing suddenly boiled over (excuse my finglish expressions
by the way, you can't please them all) and what I
had once believed to be on a way to til death does apart,
turned to be something that life aparted.
And it was good.
For a year now,
I have been collecting pieces of life,
investigated them (very csi) and some
tossed away and some I kept to be cleaned,
washed, tumbledried and saved for later use.
It has been very lonesome year too.
Lot of heart, many times I have just sat downed
and cried and cursed my own vulnerability.
(I forgive it for myself now, btw, it's the way I
have been created and thus okay)
Many late night prayers and phone calls,
just to check that there's still people outhere
who exist and care.
(thank you)
It has been time to grow, to learn, to move on.
(Thought yet I really don't seem to have)
It has been also time to be selfish.
(Maybe sometimes even too much.)
By being selfish I mean, that most
days, most moments lately, I have lived
for myself. Well, for myself and for my God.
It has been good. For I know and trust God
to be almighty. I, who am responsible for my choices
and actions, aren't responsible for my being, for my existing.
And I just want to learn to live a life, that shouts His fame.
What future brings,
where, when and how,
I yet don't know.
All I know is that it is all good.
Battle and journey, but in the end,
it shall all be good.
During the past year, this is something that I have learned
to expect and long for.
And it has been like a bootcamp.
But I am in training so the glory of God can became more and
more obvious in my life.
And one day, some day in future, I hope, that my Provider shall
also bring into my life someone who will share with me
rest of my life, for better and for worse.
Until then, I want to be in this training, to became more
like Him who created me. (i do soun idealistic, don't I? Well,
knews, I am one :)
And until then, I want my life to be open I want to remain vulnerable,
I want to invite more people to be my sisters and my brothers,
because ...
"Think again of Frodo or Neo or Caspian or Jesus. Imagine you are surrounded by a small company of friends who know you well (characters, to be sure, but they love you, and you have come to love them). They understand that we all are at war, know that the purposes of God are to bring a man or a woman fully alive, and are living by sheer necessity and joy in the Four Streams. They fight for you, and you for them. Imagine you could have a little fellowship of the heart. Would you want it if it were available?"
Ok, now I began to quote, which is good sign of bedtime.
Good night, brothers and sisters, sweet, wild dreams.
it had been a long process and something that had been under
processing suddenly boiled over (excuse my finglish expressions
by the way, you can't please them all) and what I
had once believed to be on a way to til death does apart,
turned to be something that life aparted.
And it was good.
For a year now,
I have been collecting pieces of life,
investigated them (very csi) and some
tossed away and some I kept to be cleaned,
washed, tumbledried and saved for later use.
It has been very lonesome year too.
Lot of heart, many times I have just sat downed
and cried and cursed my own vulnerability.
(I forgive it for myself now, btw, it's the way I
have been created and thus okay)
Many late night prayers and phone calls,
just to check that there's still people outhere
who exist and care.
(thank you)
It has been time to grow, to learn, to move on.
(Thought yet I really don't seem to have)
It has been also time to be selfish.
(Maybe sometimes even too much.)
By being selfish I mean, that most
days, most moments lately, I have lived
for myself. Well, for myself and for my God.
It has been good. For I know and trust God
to be almighty. I, who am responsible for my choices
and actions, aren't responsible for my being, for my existing.
And I just want to learn to live a life, that shouts His fame.
What future brings,
where, when and how,
I yet don't know.
All I know is that it is all good.
Battle and journey, but in the end,
it shall all be good.
During the past year, this is something that I have learned
to expect and long for.
And it has been like a bootcamp.
But I am in training so the glory of God can became more and
more obvious in my life.
And one day, some day in future, I hope, that my Provider shall
also bring into my life someone who will share with me
rest of my life, for better and for worse.
Until then, I want to be in this training, to became more
like Him who created me. (i do soun idealistic, don't I? Well,
knews, I am one :)
And until then, I want my life to be open I want to remain vulnerable,
I want to invite more people to be my sisters and my brothers,
because ...
"Think again of Frodo or Neo or Caspian or Jesus. Imagine you are surrounded by a small company of friends who know you well (characters, to be sure, but they love you, and you have come to love them). They understand that we all are at war, know that the purposes of God are to bring a man or a woman fully alive, and are living by sheer necessity and joy in the Four Streams. They fight for you, and you for them. Imagine you could have a little fellowship of the heart. Would you want it if it were available?"
Ok, now I began to quote, which is good sign of bedtime.
Good night, brothers and sisters, sweet, wild dreams.
perjantaina, elokuuta 10, 2007
Take a moment to read this...
...for it is something that somehow makes so much sense.
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I Will Go Before You
I will go before you
and will level the mountains;
I will break down gates of bronze
and cut through bars of iron.
I will give you the treasures of darkness, riches stored in secret places, so that you may know that I am the Lord, the God of Israel, who summons you by name. (Isa. 45:2–3)
God’s imagery of going before us lets us know that he desires us to go on a journey. This is not so frightening. Most of us are aware that the Christian life requires a pilgrimage of some sort. We know we are sojourners. What we have sometimes not given much thought to is what kind of a journey we are to be taking.
Not realizing it is a journey of the heart that is called for, we make a crucial mistake. We come to a place in our spiritual life where we hear God calling us. We know he is calling us to give up the less-wild lovers that have become so much a part of our identity, embrace our nakedness, and trust in his goodness.
As we stand at this intersection of God’s calling, we look down two highways that appear to travel in very different directions. The first highway quickly takes a turn and disappears from our view. We cannot see clearly where it leads, but there are ominous clouds in the near distance. Standing still long enough to look down this road makes us aware of an anxiety inside, an anxiety that threatens to crystallize into unhealed pain and forgotten disappointment. We check our valise and find no up-to-date road map but only the torn and smudged parchment containing the scribbled anecdotes and travelers’ warnings by a few who have traveled the way of the heart before us. They encourage us to follow them, but their rambling journals give no real answers to our queries on how to navigate the highway.
(John Eldredge: The Sacred Romance ,p. 127–28)
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I Will Go Before You
I will go before you
and will level the mountains;
I will break down gates of bronze
and cut through bars of iron.
I will give you the treasures of darkness, riches stored in secret places, so that you may know that I am the Lord, the God of Israel, who summons you by name. (Isa. 45:2–3)
God’s imagery of going before us lets us know that he desires us to go on a journey. This is not so frightening. Most of us are aware that the Christian life requires a pilgrimage of some sort. We know we are sojourners. What we have sometimes not given much thought to is what kind of a journey we are to be taking.
Not realizing it is a journey of the heart that is called for, we make a crucial mistake. We come to a place in our spiritual life where we hear God calling us. We know he is calling us to give up the less-wild lovers that have become so much a part of our identity, embrace our nakedness, and trust in his goodness.
As we stand at this intersection of God’s calling, we look down two highways that appear to travel in very different directions. The first highway quickly takes a turn and disappears from our view. We cannot see clearly where it leads, but there are ominous clouds in the near distance. Standing still long enough to look down this road makes us aware of an anxiety inside, an anxiety that threatens to crystallize into unhealed pain and forgotten disappointment. We check our valise and find no up-to-date road map but only the torn and smudged parchment containing the scribbled anecdotes and travelers’ warnings by a few who have traveled the way of the heart before us. They encourage us to follow them, but their rambling journals give no real answers to our queries on how to navigate the highway.
(John Eldredge: The Sacred Romance ,p. 127–28)
sunnuntaina, elokuuta 05, 2007
It's...
...burning inside of me.
Need to connect closer with God.
To look my perfect King face to face,
to see feel touch hear.
Need to devote my life more,
sink my self in prayer and
in worship.
Let my life to shout your fame Lord.
I feel desperate.
24/7prayer feeling cathing me...
I feel it in my bones
like ancient marching song rising up
from deep
midst of heart
unknown land
unconquered territories...
Release me,
let me
BURN FOR YOU.
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