|fleet|

I trust my ability to be, and to stay with you.
I trust your ability to be, and to stay with me.

[not all who wander,are lost]

had i just told all my dreams (even the non existent ones)
to sit in a row in straight-jackets
and keep staring at the floor,
without uttering or muttering a word 

i am a dreamer,
a visionary,
it's a reason to exist
and to be
and is that i get to dream, 

lightness,

play

unstoppable force
series of stunningly surprising

coincidences on the great seven seas

swan dive,

i don't know if actually being a little romantic,
i'd like to be liked
not just tolerated

if not, i don't want my heart to get
it's feed from elsewhere

we are doing really well, i trust us

please don't read the doubt
from my eyes
for behind there is trust
please don't read the desperation
for I am founded on hope
don't believe the sorrow
that will be washed away

In all things, it's going to be alright
For the One who loved us first.

[nowhere]

a balloon helicopter

carries what is left of the crystal chandelier

over the mountains,

casting rainbow shadows

down on the valley

echo of the humming is not so silent

metsä vastaa niinkuin sinne huudetaan

Phoenix, it's called sabotage

undeserving left alone kamikaze

Can redemption reach 

the dead end

tired and hurting

Rainclouds,

break the still with your storm

breath life, 

I need

Speak: I can, I can, I can,

I am, I am, I am,

hope.

[bf|bf]

no matter how it goes,
next to you is still the safest place for me
thank you for letting me stay
this is where i want to be
i want to grow in to you

and when i am safe with you
there are waves that come against me

and they hurt and momentarily
i can't see from the salt in my eyes
and it stings

but hold my hand,
this fortress will keep
don't let me go

with time, ideals
will be grounded,
matrix to who we are,
babysteps.

light will win
light will win
it's morning

wind, earth, fire/
find form in me,
redefine.

presence, tense
break me out
of this mold
let me look at You
find myself

Highest, I don't understand
why You want me,
you walked before me,
cloud by a day,
before I was pure
You made me to be,
You have wanted me

Create me a safe place,
for my love,
let me be held by You,
'til the dawn,
speak gentle words for my being,
keep me in stillness.

[shed_light]

If I feel incomplete.
If I feel short of able to love.
If I feel unable to offer.
If I feel I have nothing to give.
If I don't know if I can do this.
If I don't know if I am worthy of this.
If I feel guilty of having what others want,
not having deserved it because I struggle
making it work.

Arvottomuus, Epäonnistuminen,
Hylkääminen, Häpeä, Syyllisyys,
Pelko.

You don't belong to me.

One died,
So I could live.

feel it in the corners of the room
dark wind luring and lurking
to fight or to give in
it speaks of lethal logic
survival of the fittest

and i, i am not cut out for the
competition,
my soul crumbles from the comparison
and heart withdraws

it only wants to come out to play
in the sunny fields
where ligers whisk their tales
and chase unicorns and
get chased by bunnies in return

in those very same fields,
comfort and safety is restored
battle gear is picked up 
and strength re-gained
darkness defeated.

how can i invite you here
where i don't want to be myself
it's only gray around me
and numb and songs left unsung
can't find my way out

[:re-leaf:]

"Growing in friendship involves learning through conversation who you are as individuals. It's having fun together and spending quality and quantity time together.
...Relax and enjoy each other's company. Look for activities and settings that allow you to spend time together and talk freely. And don't limit yourselves to going out on dates. Look for ways to share the different parts of your life - the fun, the mundane, and the in-between. Work together and play together; serve side by side.
The strategic question to keep in mind is: How can you let each other see the "real you"? Whatever it is you love, what it is that captures your imagination, invite the other person into it - and ask the other to take you into his or her world too."

p. 79 bmg. - thanks Josh for well crafted words, this speaks to me so as what I believe is for myself a most in-depth and fundamental relation foundation building framework. It's the place, where guarding of the heart becomes mutual, where trust is build, where hardships are won and where joy begins to flow into every area. Where rest is assured. I long for this place.  

"Fairy tales do not tell children the dragons exist. Children already know that dragons exist. Fairy tales tell children the dragons can be killed." 

— G.K. Chesterton

"I don't deny," he said, "that there should be priests to remind men that they will one day die. I only say that at certain strange epochs it is necessary to have another kind of priests, called poets, actually to remind men that they are not dead yet." 

— G.K. Chesterton (Manalive)