pouring out moody blues

Blaah.
I'm so bored and feeling lonely
and angry to myself and frustrated.
There is plenty to do, more than
two days workload undone, waiting.
I can't find enough self discipline
to tackle the load and not enough motivation
to find the discipline.
It's raining outside.
It looks like all my friendships have
shrunk in to a stage where you only call
one when you either need something or something
needs to be done.

I can only see my dreams and everything drift away.
Dwell in selfpity.

I should get a job but am terribly frightened
of the process.
Not sure what to do.

I hate tuesdays.

ps. gotta love the autumn colors, after all X)