cleaning up my closet...

mMMmmm...(*while writing, i'm eating rasberries
with vanilla yoghurt and maple syrup*) I feel like
a nerd here, have two computers in front of
my nose, another one with wall size screen and
another is funky lil macbook.
Haha. And children, do not eat on your keyboard at home!

My new macbook is real prayer answer,
it is a gift which makes me feel so blessed
and wonder what would God like me
to use it for. It's incredible to suddenly
have both macbook and digital SRL camera.
Long term dream come true. - ***** - !!

On the other hand, since three weeks ago i have
been once again having mild age crisis.
(NOTE: MILD, not MIDDLE!!!, not THAT old yet!)
Whole crisis thing is quite pointless really!!!
But i had this reoccurring dream that i had
as a child dreamt of many things and none of
them had happened this far. Fealt like a failure.
Well then, i found this old box where i used to
store all kind of "important papers",
school diplomas, notes, letters etc.
From there i also found a letter which we had to
write to ourselves at school when i was
in beginning of the 7th grade. In this letter
assingment was to imagine, what we would be like
when we are 19, 30 and 45 years old.
It was quite funny to see my 13-year old self to be so
influenced by books i had been reading and by music
i had been listening. One thing i was a bit sad to
find out about: my plans hadn't included God.
I know i believed in God back then, but i probably
had never yet understood how much I personally meant
to Him and how much interest he showed (and still does)
to my every day life, dreams, hopes and plans.
It is actually quite miraculous how God did hijack
my life in last ten years. I wouldn't trade it away
now for any treasure or wealth or success and i'm looking so much
forward to next ten years and finding out
where all this is leading to...
I luv my life, i luv my God.

Circle Zion, take her measure,
count her fortress peaks,
Gaze long at her sloping bulwark,
climb her citadel heights—
Then you can tell the next generation
detail by detail the story of God,
Our God forever,
who guides us till the end of time."
ps. 48:12-14

post scriptum.
and one more thing about that letter:
All those things that i had written down
that i would be when i'm 30 i have either
done, have plenty of time to do or don't
want anymore. So much for that worry!! Haha.