[afterthought]

i am nothing but dust
yet gloriously formed
to please you
to be with you
to be a platform
for the life in you
in us,

my humble form
carries, generations
of royalty dethroned
obedience forces me to freedom
breaking the ties meanwhile

future sounds like thousand crystal bells
in the gentle evening wind
if this tightrope is made of barbed wire
i'll just fly across, unharmed
fountain of honey.

[Under Your Smile: Merchant Band]

Could I sit for a while under Your smile

And not say a word
‘Cause the cry of my heart is to be set apart
And I know You’ve heard
I’ve turned from all the ways and the choices that I made
That were hurting You
So I’ll trust and believe that You’ve washed me clean
And I’m pleasing You

I don’t want to be anywhere else but by Your side
I don’t want to be anything less than pure in Your eyes
(In Your eyes)

I am Yours, You are mine, beyond time
Nothing will separate us
Lord, hold me now in Your arms
Till forever comes

Could I sit at Your feet, feel Your gaze upon me
As I trust You’re near
All the words that You speak are life unto me
And I need to hear
Tears fill my eyes as I realize
That You’re wanting me
You can have what You see, please take all of me
You’re my only hope

[not too early or too late]

Oh solitude
Elegance of longing
Bittersweet and salty,
diamonds run down.

Deliberately,
knitted together,
Scenery, captivating.

[He hears us.]

If I could only
show you the way of my mind
Share to you the map of my heart
But all in one go, it's too much
So Beloved, My Friend,
Let us just Rest
Abide,
Breath,
Smile-in-take.
It will all come,
blink by blink,
brick by brick,
undone and completed.

If I could only
take away all the pressure of you
smoothen your frown
and kiss gently your brow,
we will be just fine,
as we've always been,
He carries us about in His pocket,
perfect plan,
You, Me, and Glorious things.

Assured.
Assimilation.
Acknowledged.

Each day, let's run together,
wild horses and wild eagles.
In Green pastures
and by still waters.

[missing you]

Like a hunger that no food satisfies
Like a fire that doesn't warm
Like thirst in a desert
Like a ghost limb that's itching
Like ripping off a bandage, slowly
Like loosing a hundred dollar bill in the wind
Like dropping my ice cream on the floor
Like getting lost without a map
Like a perfect dress i didn't get to wear
Like a gray and rain while on summer holiday
Like a endless tickle or tick
Like my heart is having a constant fit
Uncomfortably vulnerable/
Unable to breath/
Utterly, constantly there,
[Can't wait to get you here]

[Sí, Señor.]

[you looked at me and saw a rainbow
did you recognize it to be a promise already then,
something to be learned and re-discovered,
and you were never indifferent to me.
with the same intensité I do everything else
I miss you now, with passion,
with my whole bEing,
and it hurts, but it's ok, that hurt will grow diamonds.
When I'm learning of you, of sharing with you,
I open these gates and then that part of walls
begins to belong to you too.]

[him|heralaya]

The only problem with waking up from
the soaring hights of Himalayas,
is when haven't even quite opened my eyes
yet but need to break out from the cocoon,
to the fresh mountain air and have that feeling
that something is missing,
like if there already is,
in the dream,
another cocoon somewhere
within an arms reach,
and awake,
it's not yet,
my hand found only faith to grasp
onto, when it reached out to hold.
Can a dream,
that has not audible words yet but
a vague but bright hope and a silent desire,
can it become,
is it within reason
to allow the dream be,
alive and kicking
three two one.