Wild but gentle

Over the past summer I have found
that I have fallen deeply in love
with God. It sounds so crazy to explain
but my inside (soul, heart, whatever you call it)
has been filled with deep knowledge of
living God, on whom I can always depend and
who, is always there for me.
This God is a warrior, wild, fierce
but also gentle, loving, caring and providing.
And when I open my "love letter" - Bible,
tons of verses describe these things I have
come to know.

This video above, A frank conversation with
Pastor Mark Driscoll of Mars Hill Church,
Seattle about the costs and the requirements
of being a church planter didn't speak to me some much
of a church planter/planting but also about this
wilder and "macho" side of God, which I love.
And it is also this image of God in men I long
for and I respect and expect.
I could talk about this for hours, but don't have hrs
time now, so I cut it short and make short cut to end
of my "speech" here.

I want to see more men in Church in Finland. And I don't mean
church only as buildings and congregations, but as body of
Christ. Forget your beliefs of religion and conventions,
look at loving warrior Christ Jesus :) and ask him who you
are and what to do and where do you belong.
And I want to ask for forgiveness from (Finnish) men,
as I have often thought and believed that you are not good
enough and don't have what it takes or even if you have, you
are not willing to use it and are passive or then manipulative
and aggressive. And I want learn to submit and respect
leadership of men. And I want to courage and bless (specially Finnish)
men as leaders, friends and brothers.
I want to have patient to wait and to be ready
for time when
God leads the One to walk, pray and fight
side by side with me
and I want to be ready to follow that man.
As we follow Jesus.