If madness is the new sane.
Sometimes, when making choices i feel like loosing what i have had left of my mind.
Up against hard cold facts my own intuitive choices shake but stand tall with their back to the wall. Few days ago I was clearly shown in black and white the consequences of my former decision as sort of closing of the accounts. Side i had chosen appeared - ...white? - spacious, open, uncertain, even intimidating, challenging, adventurous, full of options. Not predictable. Even foolish. Choosing to live life to chase the way and will of God.
For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God. 1.Cor.1:18
To choose invisible.
You can't see the wind, but you can see the effect of the wind. Greek word pneuma means both breath, wind and spirit. My prayer is to be the effect of the Spirit.
This yearning relates to sense of freedom, a freedom to journey.
Have you seen the movie called "Chocolat"? In the movie leading lady Vianne (Juliette Binoche) senses "the north wind" and feels that like her family's tradition, it's time to pack up things and go, move further. I know this sounds crazy, but every now and then, i feel the north wind calling. I can hear it's beat. It used to be escaping but i think things i used to escape have been dealed with. Do you rather escape or conquer?
The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit. Joh. 3:8
To live requires to hear beat and to be able to breath.
Heart beats. Heart is often underestimated. Heart is essential. King Solomon is remembered as the wisest man ever, and it wasn't because of the size of his brain. Rather, when God invited him to ask for anything in all the world, Solomon asked for a wise and discerning heart (1 Kings 3:9). Would you excuse me for using "hearing the beat" as a metaphor for knowing? As knowing by heart. Deep, justified, warranted, well-founded, well-grounded knowledge flowing from deep inside which leads to deep insights.
To hear the beat is to know when to jump.
To jump requires courage. To not to lose heart when you need to trust invisible. One's courage increases by experience and by learning (to trust). To trust the great unknown, to trust invisible. To trust to learn, to learn to fly. I wonder how flying would feel like breathing, something so natural. One day i will live as i was meant to fly. Not trusting to myself but the great I am.
"...the LORD God formed the man The Hebrew for man (adam) sounds like and may be related to the Hebrew for ground (adamah) it is also the name Adam (see Gen. 2:20). from the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living being." Gen.2:7
Life is a battle (you get beaten sometimes) and a journey (sometimes it's beauty takes your breath away). Be blessed.
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