[Invitation Only]

Would you build with me a home
under the waterfall
Where light meets raindrops
turns them to diamonds of all
colours of the spectrum
Would you have with me many sons
sons of thunder
fierce and gentle like the wind
Raise them to go to the ends of the earth
and joyfully grief when they are do.

I smile. If only I would.

To look like a spring day
crowned young like blossoming trees
or the very first winter morning
painted with lace of frost
Not a problem to be solved
but a mystery to be enjoyed
Carrying the scars of lessons learnt
Complicated becomes simple
I am not your answer.
Patchwork of details drawing a match
when you stand only an arms length away.

I smile. If only I would.
Hope.

[Intensité]

When tears came down
I would not look at you
ashamed of hurting
Unpleasantly fragile
Sparkle,
So afraid
of being vulnerable
closing in
So you won't see
on the streams of dreams of
sleepless fields where I walk
Offer the strength
to drink in the beauty
come further in
see the joy.
Tame me.

Lumi

Sweet intoxicating lullaby
shakes me up
wakes me up alive
I want to enter the storehouses of snow 
and see the arsenals of hail
ignite the little flames
stretch the net of golden thread
across the lands
ja jo alkaa hyttyset ja pienet eläimet tanssimaan


chante-moi une chanson
courir avec moi
oh bonheur



[Se suloinen tainnuttava kehtolaulu
herättääkin minut eloon
tahdon käydä paikassa jossa lunta säilytetään
nähdä rakeiden varastot
sytytä pienet liekit tuleen
levitä kultalangat yli maan]

[Dear.]

Aamuruskon peura,
hämärtyvien puiden suojassa
minä odotan
Lukemattomien erkaantuvien askelten otteessa
Idän puolella valot kertovat kodeista
aukenevan kaiun huminan laulu pakenevasta hetkestä
En pelkää pimeää
Kylkiluuton, Tule,
en ole valmis minäkään
kyllä nuo kultaiset linnut ohjaavat
seitsemän valtameren rannoille
merirosvojen aarteille
salaisille saarille
elävän veden lähteille
Tule, juostaan.

[Song for four days]

I was born of laughter
sweet tender dreams
and of a hard labour
of warring seas.
I was raised to believe in seasons
dawn that follows every winter
spring that comes after the darkest hour.

I was born of songs of those
that fly high and free
With ablaze they soar
to paint a scenery yet to be
I was raised to believe in goodness
in everything I see
to go after evil

and rescue those captives
who in their own strength
could not flee.

[love aggressively, let it take over]

"It’s a prayer written by missionary Betty Scott Stam, who stayed at Elisabeth Elliot’s house when Elisabeth was just a little girl and Betty was a young woman. She was on her way to China, to marry her fiancé John and join his mission work.
Elisabeth Elliot copied the prayer in her journal:

"Lord, I give up all my own plans and purposes, all my own desires and hopes, and accept Your will for my life. I give myself, my life, my all utterly to You to be Yours forever. Fill me and seal me with Your Holy Spirit. Use me as You want, send me where You want, work out Your whole will in my life at any cost, now and forever."

Betty Scott Stam meant that prayer. And God answered it. She and her husband were killed only a few years after Elisabeth first met her.
While most of us may not be called to die for our faith, we can all follow Betty’s example—by giving up all our own plans and purposes and joyfully accepting God’s will for our life.
God's will--as Elisabeth Elliot reminds us, "is always different from what [we] expect, always bigger, and, ultimately, infinitely, more glorious than [our] wildest imaginings."

___

I can't remember where I got this, it's been sitting in my draft box since May,
but I think it's great.

[..If God is a DJ Life is a dance floor..]

one of the list

"...waves of laughter washing over me, surf in the joy, lift me up/
shaking, stirring, sandpaper the pain of professional dead ends/
grieving on the tombstone of confidence long lost/
but your honesty, your knowing of my heart so sobering/
and strong/ feels like love..."

I had a nice 5 day break when a good friend of mine was visiting,

but it also caused some major delay in a lot of things I'd

promised and some other things I really wanted to do.

Now I've worked the whole afternoon to catch up, and only got

to cross of 2 things out of 12 on my list. Whoa. I'm avoiding

to feel too overwhelmed and trying to grab hard on my surd

board to stay on top of the wave. It is a bit insane though,

and especially as I really wanted to do some of the things which

are now either have escaped my reach or I'm way too late for.

And how did things get so busy that there is no time 

to sort out my own life? Need to learn to say no to things,

seriously get better disciplined and find a better space

for working, getting out from the house helps a lot too.

Thank God for God who exists though, and helps me stay sane.

 And it's only 2 weeks for my birthday and I have no time or energy to think of a party, which makes me bit sad if I'd have time for sadness, It's my first Birthday in the United Kingdom.