bambi rock climbing on ice

Oh, these days of deep shadows and brilliant highlights.

I had rendering/sketching class this afternoon, thus the comment above.
Rendering/sketching is fun but my brain seems to refuse
to produce anything 3d,i read it, understand it but create
- no. Whether it is cause or effect of
my orientation to 2d graphic design instead of 3d
product design i'm not sure.

This morning I left home wearing nice high heel boots, only to turn back after few hundred meters to return and change to some reasonable footware in this case good ol' adidas superstars (no subliminal advertising). Morning had been one of those clear moments of vanity and i had felt like dressing to impress... Well overnight, the setting had changed again and everything had frozen. Weather is so balagan (cool hebrew word, means befuddled, screwed up, in disorder, awry, silly, in a whirl,...) these days, temperature can change +/- 10 degrees celcius every second day. Not complaining it just means that you have to have full repertoire of wardrobe available, not just wintere but also autumn and spring clothes. :)

Walking to and from school is also quite adventurous these days thanks to rapidly changing weather conditions. I choose to take shortcut path through forest and it means crossing little ditch/swamp area and climbing/sliding down deep slope. Mornings like this, after rainy day when everything has frozen up, it is more, let's say, interesting when climbing up "the slope path" could be described as bambi rock climbing on ice.
Note: again I'm not complaining about the weather, just saying it makes life even more unpredictable. And walking to school is extreme sport.

Well that was only introduction as i had logged in to blog about something completely else, but as i kept on blabbering for so long, just want to leave this one verse to you to reflect on:

"Above all else, guard your heart,
for it is the wellspring of life."Proverbs 4:23


edited 11:15pm, coming home from school today was a bit of adventure again, it had snowed fresh 5cm moist powder snow on top of the ice. Only option to keep digtiny and not to fracture any bones was to sort of ice skate and slide the slope down on all four :) yes i had snow in my shoes, in my hat, under my coat ... refreshing one could say.

Synchronizing Beat and Breathing.

If madness is the new sane.
Sometimes, when making choices i feel like loosing what i have had left of my mind.
Up against hard cold facts my own intuitive choices shake but stand tall with their back to the wall. Few days ago I was clearly shown in black and white the consequences of my former decision as sort of closing of the accounts. Side i had chosen appeared - ...white? - spacious, open, uncertain, even intimidating, challenging, adventurous, full of options. Not predictable. Even foolish. Choosing to live life to chase the way and will of God.
For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God. 1.Cor.1:18

To choose invisible.
You can't see the wind, but you can see the effect of the wind. Greek word pneuma means both breath, wind and spirit. My prayer is to be the effect of the Spirit.
This yearning relates to sense of freedom, a freedom to journey.
Have you seen the movie called "Chocolat"? In the movie leading lady Vianne (Juliette Binoche) senses "the north wind" and feels that like her family's tradition, it's time to pack up things and go, move further. I know this sounds crazy, but every now and then, i feel the north wind calling. I can hear it's beat. It used to be escaping but i think things i used to escape have been dealed with. Do you rather escape or conquer?
The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit. Joh. 3:8

To live requires to hear beat and to be able to breath.
Heart beats. Heart is often underestimated. Heart is essential. King Solomon is remembered as the wisest man ever, and it wasn't because of the size of his brain. Rather, when God invited him to ask for anything in all the world, Solomon asked for a wise and discerning heart (1 Kings 3:9). Would you excuse me for using "hearing the beat" as a metaphor for knowing? As knowing by heart. Deep, justified, warranted, well-founded, well-grounded knowledge flowing from deep inside which leads to deep insights.

To hear the beat is to know when to jump.

To jump requires courage. To not to lose heart when you need to trust invisible. One's courage increases by experience and by learning (to trust). To trust the great unknown, to trust invisible. To trust to learn, to learn to fly. I wonder how flying would feel like breathing, something so natural. One day i will live as i was meant to fly. Not trusting to myself but the great I am.
"...the LORD God formed the man The Hebrew for man (adam) sounds like and may be related to the Hebrew for ground (adamah) it is also the name Adam (see Gen. 2:20). from the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living being." Gen.2:7

Life is a battle (you get beaten sometimes) and a journey (sometimes it's beauty takes your breath away). Be blessed.

there might be something in the air.

They shine like dawn on an open Psalm
A knowing smile from something You said
I hunger for the daily bread of Your ways
Ah, the bread of Your ways
They glow like blue in a field of black
Illuminating the runway ahead
I love to follow the angel tread of Your ways
Ah, the tread of Your ways

I love Your ways (Your true, Your perfect ways)
I love Your ways (so beautiful to me)
Lovely always (and faithful to restore)
I love Your ways

And when I tire, they bring a second wind
A word in season, a gleam in Your eye
I love to feel the runner's high of Your ways
Ah, the high of Your ways
I lived so long under basement floors
The flickering lights, the windowless gloom
I'm here to stay in the upper room of Your ways
Ah, the room of Your ways

I need Your good word speaking
When there's nothing to say
I need Your Spirit here
Breathing on me every day
Every night I need Your love's pure light
And I've learned forever to trust
Ever to follow
Ever I'll praise Your everlasting ways
(Your everlasting ways)

I love Your ways (Your true, Your perfect ways)
I love Your ways (so beautiful to me)
Lovely always (and faithful to restore)
I love Your ways

I love your ways: Newsboys, Devotion

i like it. i like it a lot.

High source of inspiration. Maybe human beings were meant to move like this.

*bouncing around*

Hyvä kinkkukilojen sulattelubiisi,
saa hyppelemään ilosta :)

Happy New Year 2008

Shall this one be brighter :)

opening line found.

...that chronicles bit is one of my fav prayers...