[previously]

grace/
love that takes the stones,
you were throwing at yourself/
and kisses your hands clean/
grace.

[roadblocks]

i don't yet know
another response
to
deal
with
when i know what i bring
is hurting to those i love most
than to hate myself
teach me, to forgive,
forgive myself,
when hatred burns the insides,
unworthiness beats,
rejection slaps on the face,
loneliness calls,
come,
to the rescue,
save.

[selah]

[I am not with you to get somewhere

I am not with you to get something

I want to be with you

to see where we can go together,

to see how much we can learn to receive,

to be a blessing and a gift for each other,

and to the world around us.

Common ground, higher ground,

our eyes fixed on the things from Above.]

[cure]

It requires such discipline of me,
to surrender,
to be humbled by it,
when I know,
I can be a reason for things to be hard for you
and your heart is in danger, of being broken,
because I really like you,
I wouldn't want anything to hurt you,
and when I know,
I'm what hurts you, even if I never wanted it to be so,
I really have to find good reasons to remain.

My hope lies entirely, in redemption.
I trust in it, even when I can't see.
I don't like this at all,
but I do like you.

|fleet|

I trust my ability to be, and to stay with you.
I trust your ability to be, and to stay with me.

[not all who wander,are lost]

had i just told all my dreams (even the non existent ones)
to sit in a row in straight-jackets
and keep staring at the floor,
without uttering or muttering a word 

i am a dreamer,
a visionary,
it's a reason to exist
and to be
and is that i get to dream, 

lightness,

play

unstoppable force
series of stunningly surprising

coincidences on the great seven seas

swan dive,

i don't know if actually being a little romantic,
i'd like to be liked
not just tolerated

if not, i don't want my heart to get
it's feed from elsewhere

we are doing really well, i trust us

please don't read the doubt
from my eyes
for behind there is trust
please don't read the desperation
for I am founded on hope
don't believe the sorrow
that will be washed away

In all things, it's going to be alright
For the One who loved us first.

[nowhere]

a balloon helicopter

carries what is left of the crystal chandelier

over the mountains,

casting rainbow shadows

down on the valley

echo of the humming is not so silent

metsä vastaa niinkuin sinne huudetaan

Phoenix, it's called sabotage

undeserving left alone kamikaze

Can redemption reach 

the dead end

tired and hurting

Rainclouds,

break the still with your storm

breath life, 

I need

Speak: I can, I can, I can,

I am, I am, I am,

hope.