[when...]

...darkness hits you on the face and pain comes on to surface.
She didn't feel like playing an adult anymore, not too much.
Even after what was said, all true and practical.
Where do you find a way to hear it in a way that it doesn't quite
get distorted and warped and burn down all the little sprouts of hope.

When all shadows scream we told you so, we told you,
you are going to fail you fail you fail you fail
you are not to be trusted you are not
you don't meet our expectations you don't you don't you don't
we never wanted you come along anyway

Where do you stand if you don't know who you are
what do you do when you don't believe in yourself
where do you find strength when who you are is too much and not enough

how can i know if there is a future
what failures grow up to be
how would anyone even like someone like that
yet alone love.

put up a smile and walk tall and fight for yourself
but how do you fight for something that you believe is quite worthless
who would want to own someone like that
too soft for the world
too much and not enough

when ones that gave you life say despite themselves
despite themselves but when that's where you came from
it hurts
how can you believe in you if they don't believe in themselves
if they don't believe in each other

And I don't accept disillusionment as the only way forward
yes it happens [it does] but you can't preach that
you need to tell them what to do, where to find life.
We need people who are alive. Even if being alive would kill them.