Accurate or not, who knows?

Sorry guys there's no translation. Might be provided later ;)
Tein yhen hassun tosi nopean testin netissä, tämmöinen oli tulos :)

Hmm... 

Nauttii aistillisuudesta , ystävällisyydestä
ja herkkyydestä, mutta säilyttää kriittisyyden ja
estää haltioitumisen ellei aitous ja lahjomattomuus ole
ehdottomasti taattu. Tästä johtuen pitää tiukasti
kontrollissa tunnesitoutumisen tietääkseen mikä hänen
asemansa on. Vaatii täyttä vilpittömyyttä suojautuakseen
 taipumuksestaan olla liian luottavainen. Kontrolloitua
ja analyyttistä myötämielisyyttä.
Tavoittelee menestystä, aktiivista ja elämyksellistä elämää.
Haluaa kehittyä vapaasti ja vapautua epävarmuuden kahleista,
voittaa ja elää kiihkeästi. Seurallinen ja innostuva.
Vastaanottavainen kaikenlaiselle  uudelle ja
mielenkiintoiselle. Monia kiinnostuksen kohteita
ja haluaa laajentaa kokemuspiiriään.
Optimistinen tulevaisuuden suhteen.

cleaning up my closet...

mMMmmm...(*while writing, i'm eating rasberries
with vanilla yoghurt and maple syrup*) I feel like
a nerd here, have two computers in front of
my nose, another one with wall size screen and
another is funky lil macbook.
Haha. And children, do not eat on your keyboard at home!

My new macbook is real prayer answer,
it is a gift which makes me feel so blessed
and wonder what would God like me
to use it for. It's incredible to suddenly
have both macbook and digital SRL camera.
Long term dream come true. - ***** - !!

On the other hand, since three weeks ago i have
been once again having mild age crisis.
(NOTE: MILD, not MIDDLE!!!, not THAT old yet!)
Whole crisis thing is quite pointless really!!!
But i had this reoccurring dream that i had
as a child dreamt of many things and none of
them had happened this far. Fealt like a failure.
Well then, i found this old box where i used to
store all kind of "important papers",
school diplomas, notes, letters etc.
From there i also found a letter which we had to
write to ourselves at school when i was
in beginning of the 7th grade. In this letter
assingment was to imagine, what we would be like
when we are 19, 30 and 45 years old.
It was quite funny to see my 13-year old self to be so
influenced by books i had been reading and by music
i had been listening. One thing i was a bit sad to
find out about: my plans hadn't included God.
I know i believed in God back then, but i probably
had never yet understood how much I personally meant
to Him and how much interest he showed (and still does)
to my every day life, dreams, hopes and plans.
It is actually quite miraculous how God did hijack
my life in last ten years. I wouldn't trade it away
now for any treasure or wealth or success and i'm looking so much
forward to next ten years and finding out
where all this is leading to...
I luv my life, i luv my God.

Circle Zion, take her measure,
count her fortress peaks,
Gaze long at her sloping bulwark,
climb her citadel heights—
Then you can tell the next generation
detail by detail the story of God,
Our God forever,
who guides us till the end of time."
ps. 48:12-14

post scriptum.
and one more thing about that letter:
All those things that i had written down
that i would be when i'm 30 i have either
done, have plenty of time to do or don't
want anymore. So much for that worry!! Haha.

...when poor come to be served by the King...

But you'll have the title "Priests of God,"
   honored as ministers of our God.
You'll feast on the bounty of nations,
   you'll bask in their glory.
Because you got a double dose of trouble
   and more than your share of contempt,
Your inheritance in the land will be doubled
   and your joy go on forever.
"Because I, God, love fair dealing 

and hate thievery and crime,

I'll pay your wages on time and in full, 

and establish my eternal covenant with you.

Your descendants will become well-known all over. 

Your children in foreign countries

Will be recognized at once 

as the people I have blessed."
I will sing for joy in God, 
   
explode in praise from deep in my soul!

He dressed me up in a suit of salvation, 
   
he outfitted me in a robe of righteousness,

As a bridegroom who puts on a tuxedo 
   
and a bride a jeweled tiara.

For as the earth bursts with spring
wildflowers, 
   and as a garden cascades
with blossoms,
So the Master, God,
brings righteousness into full bloom 

and puts praise on display before the nations.
(isa.61:6-11 MSG)

if u haven't...

...yet read these two articles, then u should so it now.
"A recurring dream" by Andy F
"Announcing a new training initiative: Springboard 2009" by Scot B

Somewhere along these lines is the path i want to follow.
Want to walk with me?

"..resist enemy, keep standing firm, in every situation, night and day shout your praises and thank Lord for He is good.."

God is so good.

His goodness is not dependent

on my feelings, status quo or what i know.

He has surprised me so hugely

and i know that i shouldn't be satisfied

with this but keep expecting more.

I am so blessed by having people around

me who trust on Lord and

believe in me too. =)

Solid.

Joy.

pouring out moody blues

Blaah.
I'm so bored and feeling lonely
and angry to myself and frustrated.
There is plenty to do, more than
two days workload undone, waiting.
I can't find enough self discipline
to tackle the load and not enough motivation
to find the discipline.
It's raining outside.
It looks like all my friendships have
shrunk in to a stage where you only call
one when you either need something or something
needs to be done.

I can only see my dreams and everything drift away.
Dwell in selfpity.

I should get a job but am terribly frightened
of the process.
Not sure what to do.

I hate tuesdays.

ps. gotta love the autumn colors, after all X)